Taking A Leap of Faith
Trauma usually brings clarity, a profound change in vision, but for me, perhaps what it brought, above all else was self-actualization. I'm no Einstein or Mother Teresa, far from it. But for years and years, I perceived myself to be less than ordinary, mundane, small, insignificant and even defected. It was not until I broke away from the meticulous intricate chains of extreme fear and the terrifying prospect of a life without my children, that I gradually realized, through the support of my family, friends and colleagues, that I was not all the things I had made my reality out to be. Then came the self-pity and frustration. How could I have been so naive? How could I have spent a decade and a half being slowly sucked out of my humanity and reduced to a mere desperate shell of myself? Then came the aha moment... had it not been for this nightmarish time in my life, I would not be here right now, typing away, being me, the real me, raw, up close and not afraid. So the cos...